I'm at a technical conference today. I'm surrounded by strangers, mostly men. There are a few women at most of the booths, trying to catch my eye so they can make a sale. Unfortunately I have no budget. I'm here for information only.
I am interested in the talks or I wouldn't have come, but being in this environment is making a large, loud part of my brain scream "Do not want!". Especially after reading on facebook that a hiker friend only has 18 weeks to go until his thruhike starts. I have Springer Fever and I have it bad.
It is just a hair from unbearable that I won't be thruhiking again. I have a husband, pets, a home, and a job. Those things, in that order, keep me home. Out of love, mind you. But nevertheless home.
Maybe I need therapy? At the moment I want to leave more than I want my next meal.