What a year. I had a little bit of downtime today (while computers were doing things) to reflect. It was year of big things. I flew to Oregon. I was away from my husband for five months. I hiked 1350 miles. I turned 40. I gained a new nephew. I found a corpse. I got Lyme disease again. I discovered my horse's brain. I adopted three cats. I flew to Colorado.
That is a lot of stuff for one year.
It has been a year of wacky changes, physically. I lost a ton of weight while hiking, despite eating with gusto the whole time. Then I came home and had a huge appetite and gained weight. And then I stress ate and gained weight. And then it was the holidays and the food was awesome and I gained weight. Thus, I will be starting the new year with a diet. It may or may not cause me to lose weight, but I know the attempt will at least make me feel good about myself.
Despite my Jabba-like physique, I am fairly content with myself and my health these days. Three years of yoga has led to a significantly more happy existence. I hardly ever have backaches anymore, and if I do it's because I've done something REALLY dumb. As opposed to before yoga, when I could hurt myself by bending over. Having a large hunky husband to do all the heavy lifting doesn't hurt either.
Said large hunky husband has also helped my mental state. I'm just generally happier than I used to be. And, data center moves excepted, less stressed. I feel like I'm (mostly) the person I always wanted to be. I still strive toward goals, but they are not earth shattering goals. If I don't make it all the way it's okay. For me, the important thing is the journey. It's the day to day "I love you" and hugs and doing my best. I will never be Martha Stewart, or a super model (or a regular model for that matter) or a spectacular athlete. But I strive to keep a better house, take care of myself, and enjoy exercising.
Possibly I should strive to be a better sysadmin but frankly I think that boat has sailed. What I am is what they get. I ain't getting any smarter over here. Happier, yes. Smarter, no.