I'm a mess today. I don't know what's wrong with me. I had my fourth migraine in five days. I'm totally emotionally off kilter. I was so furious today that I knew if I tried to talk I would start crying. (If you're not an angry cryer, you can not imagine how frustrating this is. And how much angrier it makes me.) I picked up my stuff and drove home. Didn't say a word to anybody. Later I emailed them that I would be telecommuting the rest of the day, which I did. Of course, the machine I was working on got weird and refused to come back up when I rebooted it. This did not improve my mood.
First person to ask if I'm pregnant gets a vicious boot to the head.
The details of why I'm angry are unimportant. It's stuff that normally would not phase me. Or, if it did, would occasion a particularly sarcastic comment. Not a total meltdown.
I have on occasion gotten off kilter, and I'm always flummoxed about how to get back to my nicely balanced center. It's like my shell has gotten thin. And maybe cracked a little. Once I get to that state, pretty much anything will set me off again. Which is also frustrating.
I need to go for a nice long walk in the woods. However, that is not happening any time soon.
I'm going to go read a lot and hope that whatever has my psyche in an uproar goes back to sleep.
Hope you feel better soon!
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