Reflections on 2010

What a year.  I had a little bit of downtime today (while computers were doing things) to reflect.  It was year of big things.  I flew to Oregon.  I was away from my husband for five months.  I hiked 1350 miles.  I turned 40.  I gained a new nephew.  I found a corpse.  I got Lyme disease again.  I discovered my horse's brain.  I adopted three cats.  I flew to Colorado.

That is a lot of stuff for one year.

It has been a year of wacky changes, physically.  I lost a ton of weight while hiking, despite eating with gusto the whole time.  Then I came home and had a huge appetite and gained weight.  And then I stress ate and gained weight.  And then it was the holidays and the food was awesome and I gained weight.  Thus, I will be starting the new year with a diet.  It may or may not cause me to lose weight, but I know the attempt will at least make me feel good about myself.

Despite my Jabba-like physique, I am fairly content with myself and my health these days.  Three years of yoga has led to a significantly more happy existence.  I hardly ever have backaches anymore, and if I do it's because I've done something REALLY dumb.  As opposed to before yoga, when I could hurt myself by bending over.  Having a large hunky husband to do all the heavy lifting doesn't hurt either.

Said large hunky husband has also helped my mental state.  I'm just generally happier than I used to be.  And, data center moves excepted, less stressed.  I feel like I'm (mostly) the person I always wanted to be.  I still strive toward goals, but they are not earth shattering goals.  If I don't make it all the way it's okay.  For me, the important thing is the journey.  It's the day to day "I love you" and hugs and doing my best.  I will never be Martha Stewart, or a super model (or a regular model for that matter) or a spectacular athlete.  But I strive to keep a better house, take care of myself, and enjoy exercising.

Possibly I should strive to be a better sysadmin but frankly I think that boat has sailed.  What I am is what they get.  I ain't getting any smarter over here.  Happier, yes.  Smarter, no.